I chase things. I never feel like my present is enough. I get caught in my daydreams and long for greater things. I imagine a life of adventure, risk taking, loving, and learning about myself and the world around me.
But I’m in college.
For the time being, I’m relatively stuck.
So I go downtown, and I look at the pretty but simple cityscape and imagine I’m somewhere else. I take in its quiet liveliness and my wanderlust is slightly contained. I step down the sidewalk, walking alone, and breathe in.
Lord, how do I accept the season I am in?
I have this constant fear that I’m never going to accomplish what I want to do.
Imagine dealing with the crazy paradox of wanting to do so much but instead feeling complacency as a reaction to fear.
I think it all comes down to complete dependence on God.
He gives peace to get through the day by day.
He is the one who puts us where we need to be.
He gives grace that abounds in all of our circumstances.
My heart goes rogue sometimes. I need Him to bring me back to center. If He doesn’t, I’ll end up searching for substance in the wrong places and taking myself in the complete opposite direction. Thats just humanity—but it can be negative for my heart health.
If you tend to struggle with discontentment, I want to encourage you:
You’re not alone. Find joy in small things, like warm air after long days of frigidity. Flowers blooming. Wear your favorite outfit. Spend more time on self care. Have lunch outside (only if it’s not windy!).
Life can be a dream if you treat it like one. This gift, of being able to live how we want every single day, is so special. Thank you, Jesus.
How to accept the season that you’re in? Treat it like the ultimate dream. Take advantage of every opportunity to try new things. Know that you are in it for a reason, and stewarding it right is going to bring growth you never expected.
Thanks for reading! This was simple but sweet idea that came to me the other day. Much love,
Alex
